Oh sweet girl, my heart just broke reading this. I am SO sorry — waking up to find your husband of 12 years gone, with no real answers? That’s not just hard, that’s flat out gut-wrenching, and you have every right to feel as hurt and confused as you do.
Only the Lord knows what’s really going on in somebody’s heart. But I do know this — your faith is NOT what broke this marriage, and don’t you let anybody (including the enemy whispering in your ear) convince you otherwise. You got baptized and started growing closer to Jesus, and sometimes that kind of light just exposes what was already cracked.
You are covered in prayer, friend, I promise you that. Praying God wraps you up tight, gives you a peace that doesn’t make a lick of sense given the circumstances, and puts some good people around you — friends, family, your church family, maybe even a good Christian counselor — to help carry you through this hard and confusing time.
Thank you for trusting me with something this personal, that means a lot. Sending you a big ol’ hug and so much love, sweet friend. You’re gonna be okay, I just know it. 🙏💛